I've finally realised how little I need or want you around me right now.
You are just causing unecessary stress in my life.
You just don't care like you used to.
I've finally realised what i need in my life right now is a good bloody textbook.
My uni work comes first this is it now.
I need to get my grades up and this needs to become my priority.
This needs to be what I wake up on a morning thinking about.
I need to strive to do my best.
Throughout my life I have always got the best result, getting great GCSE's, getting straight disctinctions at college I now need to get the best result at university.
I shouldn't just accept passing anymore.
I think i've started this tonight by completing documents that should have been completed in November.
I'm going to take on board all negative parts of my life and turn them into a positive.
If i'm not happy well then I need to change whatever is making me unhappy.
The first thing i'm going to do is stop bothering and see how long it takes till people WANT to bother with me, this'll just prove what's the point in keeping particular people in my life.
I feel very empowered right now that i'm making my own positive decisions for my life.
I think I first started thinking last night.
I don't think i've been that offended in a long time.
Especially by someone who I'm supposed to mean something to, which I don't think is the case.
But just for my knowledge.
I KNOW I have morals, standards, ethics, principles.
AND half of these are professional standards that mean a lot to me.
I'm going to build myself up for the biggest let down i'll have had for a while.
I don't want it to happen, but it's probably for the best and probably will happen.
I want someone who wants to know how my day has been and what i've done.
You are just causing unecessary stress in my life.
You just don't care like you used to.
I've finally realised what i need in my life right now is a good bloody textbook.
My uni work comes first this is it now.
I need to get my grades up and this needs to become my priority.
This needs to be what I wake up on a morning thinking about.
I need to strive to do my best.
Throughout my life I have always got the best result, getting great GCSE's, getting straight disctinctions at college I now need to get the best result at university.
I shouldn't just accept passing anymore.
I think i've started this tonight by completing documents that should have been completed in November.
I'm going to take on board all negative parts of my life and turn them into a positive.
If i'm not happy well then I need to change whatever is making me unhappy.
The first thing i'm going to do is stop bothering and see how long it takes till people WANT to bother with me, this'll just prove what's the point in keeping particular people in my life.
I feel very empowered right now that i'm making my own positive decisions for my life.
I think I first started thinking last night.
I don't think i've been that offended in a long time.
Especially by someone who I'm supposed to mean something to, which I don't think is the case.
But just for my knowledge.
I KNOW I have morals, standards, ethics, principles.
AND half of these are professional standards that mean a lot to me.
I'm going to build myself up for the biggest let down i'll have had for a while.
I don't want it to happen, but it's probably for the best and probably will happen.
I want someone who wants to know how my day has been and what i've done.