I haven't felt this low for such a long time.

I can't stop crying.

I hate it.

I wanna go home so much.

And i can't.

I want to be with my mam.

My sister.

Daniel.

Livvy.

Charlotte.

What i'd do right now for my best friend to hold me while i fall asleep.

To just tell me everything is going to be okay.

Even though it's not going to be okay.

And if i'm honest i could quite easily take the cowards way out.

So fucking easy.

But it's a vicious circle.

I'd rather be dead than feel so fucking shit.

And now i'm literally going to drink as much as i possibly can.

And i want to feel nothing.

And i want my tears to stop.

And i want to disappear.