I want

Another kiss in the rain please.

♥

I love you

IS SO EASY TO SAY.

I WILL NEVER BELIEVE ANYONE WHO DARES SAY IT TO ME AGAIN.

LEEDSLEEDSLEEDS.

I am FAR TOO FUCKING EXCITED.
I said i wanted to do Glasto this year, but couldn't with uni.
But i'm gunna do Leeds instead GHAGFAJOQJERAGF.
I now have no money to buy food but it's alright ;]
I'll just not eat.
Aha.
Bloody good plan.

I also have to go and see Marina.
She is one of my favourites right now.
I also think she's a good looking chap as well. ;]

Not as good as my girlfriend.

I am so in love with her right this second.♥

UGH.

Y'know.
I am fed up of everyone taking me for a joke.
I ALWAYS have to make an effort with people and yet people just continue to take the piss out of me.

The end.

I guess right now is one of the times i'm waiting for this big black hole to come and swallow me up.

Everything is far too hard and busy and shit for me right now.

I want to run away.

Pros and cons.

I am constantly making these silly lists in my head.
With the pros and cons.
Better than me writing them down i guess.
They do help though.

So i've realised my jealous streek is actually terrible.
I realised she wouldn't talk to me on the phone.
Because she was going to meet her.
She said they 'd probably argue.
But still not the point.
=\

I'm excited to make a phone call, like in an hour or so.
It'll take me back to about two years ago?
LONGER i think.

I got an idea into my head yesterday.
And i find i'm very impulsive and once i get a idea.
I tend to just do it.
Which for once i think i'm gunna break the rules.
Cause i don't reckon the other half is too fond of the idea.
But i'm over it now.
Her loss.

I feel like i'm becoming such a cold hearted bitch.
And building up all the barriers again.
'Cause I don't want to get hurt.
But it's getting to the point where I actually don't care.
At all.
It stuff happens it does, if it doesn't it doesn't.
And there'll be a reason - karma :]
People can crack on.
I've learnt that i'm proper self-sufficient.
And i don't really need anyone.
I can do it myself.
Yes I can!

Apparently a guy who moved in halls in March has gone missing.
Hasn't went to uni and isn't at home.
I hope he hasn't been taken or anything.
I hope he's decided to just leave and start again somewhere new.
I wanna do that.
Go somewhere, get a new phone.
Take a change of clothes and some photos.and get a job and be completely anonymous!
I know where i'd go as well.
I may end up just doing that.
Watch this space.

My eye is sore and feels swollen and just really not pleasant.
Hello chemist themorra.

In the sun.

I pictured you in the sun wondering what went wrong
And falling down on your knees asking for sympathy
And being caught in between all you wish for and all you seen
And trying to find anything you can feel that you can believe in

May God's love be with you
Always....
May God's love be with you

I know i would apologize if i could see your eyes
'Cause when you showed me myself, you know, i became someone else
But i was caught in between all you wish for and all you need
I pictured you fast asleep
A nightmare comes
You can't keep awake

'Cause if i find
If i find my own way
How much will i find
If i find
If i find my own way
How much will i find
If i find
If i find my own way
How much will i find
You...
You...
I'll find you
You...

I don't know anymore
What it's for
I'm not even sure
If there is anyone who is in the sun
Will you help me to understand
'Cause i been caught in between all I wish for and all I need
Maybe you're not even sure what it's for
Any more than me

May God's love be with you
Always...


'Cause if i find
If i find my own way
How much will i find
If i find
If i find my own way
How much will i find
You...
I'll find you
You...

Naturally.

I'm so worried about everything right now.
Everything just seems to be going so wrong.
I have so much doubt in my mind.

I'm in pain as well.
Hopefully that should be resolved tomorrow.
Fingers crossed.

Too true.

I want you to want me.

I need you to need me.

I'd love you to love me.

I'm beggin' you to beg me.

I want you to want me.

I need you to need me.

I'd love you to love me.

I'll shine up the old brown shoes, put on a brand-new shirt.

I'll get home early from work if you say that you love me.

Didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin'?

Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin'?

Feelin' all alone without a friend, you know you feel like dyin'.

Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin'?

Didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin'?

Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin'?

Feelin' all alone without a friend, you know you feel like dyin'.

Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin'?

Feelin' all alone without a friend, you know you feel like dyin'.

Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin'?

I want you to want me.

I need you to need me.

I'd love you to love me.

I'm beggin' you to beg me.

I want you to want me.

I want you to want me.

I want you to want me.

I want you to want me.

We'll see :)